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It’s Another Day in the Sand Hills

It’s been pretty busy and hectic here in the Sand Hills of North Carolina, which is more normal for us this time of year than one might imagine, and the weather has been on crack. One day it’s in the upper 80’s and the next down in the low 40’s. Today it’s cold and raining and the high is only supposed to reach 52°. Yes, I am fully aware there are places colder than we are, and I’ve lived in places where it gets much colder. However, living in North Carolina, it really is a roller coaster when it comes to the weather. You never know from one day to the next whether there will be sun or rain. The forecast can even change from hour to hour, seriously!

Since the last post, Calliope had to have emergency surgery. It seems what I thought was her normal “heat cycle” turned out to be a nasty infection in her uterus called Pyometra. Her doctor said if I hadn’t been so diligent and knew something was wrong, this infection could have killed her. At any rate, now that she’s had the dental work and has been spayed and the mass on her abdomen has been removed (it was cancerous BTW, but Dr. Chavis says she’s confident they removed all of it), she’s beginning to come back to her normal feisty self. She’s still not eating as much as I’d like, and she’s not gaining back the weight she lost while so sick, but baby steps … I’m thankful to the Gods I have a few more years with my precious furbaby.

Yesterday, I took what I am calling a mental health day. I stayed offline and unplugged for the most part. The only exception was a couple of text messages and then at the end of the day, I checked my email. This morning I feel so much better, more focused and alert, which leads me to believe this should become a regular happening in my world. Luckily, I don’t work outside the house and I can decide when I need to take a break from the crazies without having to have someone sign off on it, LOL! Today, I’m back online, plugged back into the crazies and going about my normal day to day activities.

OH! One of the things I”ve been working on is re-opening Aoibheal’s Attic. I thought I had outgrown that part of my dream. Over the past few years, I’ve changed from Aoibheal’s Attic to The Feisty Witch and then to the current The Feisty FaerieWitch. Somewhere deep in my heart, the concept of Aoibheal’s Attic just never went away. I had various issues getting the name on the EID transferred with the IRS, which never came about, so I just decided to keep the original concept, open the Etsy store again and separate the blogging from the commerce part of me. My plan is to use the blog for personal updates and sharing the things I have learned as I walk my path with my Deities, and then share the things I create in the Etsy shop. There is also a Facebook page for Aoibheal’s Attic where I will be posting pictures of the things I’ve listed on Etsy with a “shop now” button for your convenience.

That’s all for this time, over the next couple of days I’m hoping to add a direct link from here to the Etsy shop and to the Facebook page. If you are so inclined, stop on by and see what’s happening?

 

 

 


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Depression Isn’t Fun

Before anyone gets their panties in a bunch, this is about my journey with depression. Not everyone will have the same symptoms or experiences I write about. I don’t walk the same twisted road that someone else may be traveling. Depression is real. It’s debilitating and it is a never-ending cycle. Yes, you can control it with medication and sometimes a lifestyle change. Or if you are like me and stop taking the drugs you’ve been given simply because you don’t like living life as a shell with little to no emotion, you find other ways to manage … until you can’t. When that happens to me and I can’t manage the fear, the tears, the anxiety and the roller coaster emotions, I spend time curled in my blankets in the middle of my bed and only move if absolutely necessary. Fortunately for me, I have a strong supportive husband who also fights with depression and he can often tell the signs before they manifest in me to the point of being the non-functioning Vickie.

This past week was one of the times I needed my blankets. Two unexpected deaths in our extended CHOSEN family and the anniversary of my Momma’s passing. All week long I was on a roller coaster while trying at the same time to lend love and support to others who were going through the loss and grief I was running from. Little things set me to crying, and even smaller things brought huge smiles to my face and a giggle to my voice. But, last week was a busy week and I didn’t get to spend any time wrapped in the comforting nest of my blankets. I got up every morning, faced the challenges each of those mornings gave me, some were easier to handle than others, but not one of those challenges (like the Aussies chewing up not one but two hoops that had been wrapped for dream shield creation) or one of those days got the best of me. I won this round, I survived and I came out on the other side victorious.

Today, I’m feeling a bit better. I had 2 full days of time with Jimmy, the time we can’t always find because we are so busy with day to day life. Granted, Friday was spent mostly driving from one end of the state to the other (not literally, we drove from Hope Mills to Kenansville and back to Hope Mills/Fayetteville and then all over Fayetteville, LOL!) to settle the ticket he got last July after the accident while working for Sanderson Farms, but it was time we spent together, talking, laughing, making plans. Then, Saturday was filled to exhaustion for me with errands and shopping with my girls and Maine, while Jimmy and the Little Witch spent most of the day at Aloha Safari Rescue Zoo’s Boo at the Zoo.

This morning, we are back to our routines, Jimmy is at work driving the dump truck in circles, Tanya and Maine are cleaning and painting, Mylia will be at her desk for Kelly Services this afternoon. The only deviation is the Little Witch isn’t at school due to teachers in-service day. So, we’ve got Barbie movies on Amazon, pages to color and possibly some cookies to make. And since our high-temperature is only going to reach 61° later today, I’m making a homemade completely from scratch chicken pot pie for dinner.

The only dim part of today is that Calliope isn’t feeling well. I’ve been watching her like a hawk since she had the dental surgery 10 days ago. She is still taking the medication Dr. Chavis sent home for her, she was feeling much better, had been playing and running around like before and had begun eating more … until yesterday when she began vomiting her dinner and then sometime last night she developed diarrhea. This morning she’s not eating and she started her “heat” cycle. Thankfully, that is one of the things that will be taken care of when she goes back on the 22nd …

Depression? Go away. I don’t have time for you today, I will not give in and I will beat you down. This time you will not win.


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Updates …

I can’t believe October is almost over!! It’s been so busy here and not one of us has had time to do more than a simple recharge before we are off onto the next phase of the adventure we call our life.

TBH, I could lie and say everything here is great, there are no problems and it’s a grand time … that is an untruth and that’s not fair to anyone. So, to break things down I’mma start with this:

Last week Calliope had to have surgery to remove 16 of her little teeth. There was so much plaque built up on them and one had formed a nasty abscess that I actually thought was a bite of some sort before it exploded all over the place. Before we could schedule the procedure to clean and extract the unsalvagable teeth she was on heavy medication for her liver functions which were in the toilet, her red blood cell count was LOW and her white blood cell count was off the charts high. She wouldn’t (couldn’t) eat, she lost 15 ounces in one week! and to say I’ve been a nervous wreck would be an understatement. Today is day 5 post op and she’s doing MUCH better, she’s eating, is more active and coming back to being her usual crotchety self with the bigger dogs, LOL! She’s still is underweight, but with the way she’s eating now, I’m hoping it won’t take long to regain those ounces she lost presurgery. AND! I wanna say THANKS SO VERY MUCH to those who lit candles and offered up thoughts and prayers for us while we were going through all this. Next up is having the mass (Dr. Chavis says it is probably benign) on her little tummy removed while at the same time having her spayed. Yes, I know she’s 8 and I shoulda already had it done, I didn’t and my only excuse is she was never exposed to male dogs at all.

There have been two deaths in our extended chosen family in just the past week. Keeping vigil for the transition into the Summerlands while at the same time supporting the surviving family members have kept me and many others quiet and off the interwebs. It is always difficult for me when someone crosses the veil, I never seem to have the right words to say to express my sorrow for the loss nor do I know what to say to the family. Saying I’m sorry for your loss seems to me to be so overused, trite and consequently of little import. I cannot even remember the number of times I’ve read those 5 words in differing comment threads this week. Yes, I know it is an accepted form of conveying condolences, it’s just one of those stupid little things that bother me … *sigh*

Finally, there is some major drama in Tanya’s familial (their most inner circle of the 4 of them) life. Here’s where I have to Vaguebook because while I want to get the basics out and have the positive return energy shared, this is NOT my story to tell. Just know, this is serious, it will affect the entire family, all of us in one way or another. I “can” tell you, Tanya nor no one else is dead or dying or severely physically ill, no surgeries and no medical hospital stays.

Oh yeah, and Friday is the 5th anniversary of my Momma’s passing … I AM an emotional wreck …


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It Seems Like Forever …

… since I’ve taken the time to sit down and actually write a post, instead of going through the archives and reposting something just so I can say I’m still blogging. Truth is, Autumn is the busiest time of the year for us. Here in NC, the fall is full of festivals and vendor events, the temperatures are almost perfect to spend more time out of doors with family & friends, and I’d rather be doing something positive with the time the Gods have granted me than sitting on my ass in front of the computer reading about all the negative nasty things going on in the world. That doesn’t mean I’m hiding my head in the sand, nor does it mean I’m uninformed or unengaged, it means I’m cherishing each and every moment I have to spend with my family, while at the same time networking to help make the changes I want to see come to pass.

The first of the month has come and gone and the habitual culling of the chaff has been completed. I’ve removed a few people from my life who, no matter how much I tried to understand their point of view on life, I just couldn’t begin to wrap my head around what in MY opinion was nothing more than the unwillingness to open their eyes, learn a different perspective and perhaps see there IS more to life outside the box they’ve hidden themselves in. I wish these people no ill and I honestly hope they can somehow find joy and light in the darkness of this crazy world we all live in.

I’ve also been working with my Totems and will eventually have a page here on the blog that talks a little about the Nine Totems, how each of them influence our lives and what my totems are. I’ve been asked numerous times by various people to put something together in a centralized location that will give a better understanding of how our Totems guide us on our daily walk. And I’m hoping to have the page complete in a few more days. I think the most enjoyable thing about learning about our Totems (to me) is that each one has a different reason to be in our lives and a different lesson to teach each of us.

Going hand in hand with working with my Totems, we have a large group (a murder?) of crows (my Totem for South) living in the trees bordering our yard. Every time I go outside I hear them calling and I find myself stopping whatever it is I’m doing to just listen to them speak, I love how they call to each other. The other morning I was outside with Calliope (before she had to stay in the hospital), I heard the crows calling and called out a Good Morning to them, their calls got louder! It was such an awesome feeling! When we moved into this house in March, I was worried the crows wouldn’t be able to find us, but I’m happy to say it took no time at all for them to establish themselves in our trees and set up their nests. There is also a family or two of Blue Jays living in the trees, this makes me as happy as knowing the crows are nearby! Blue Jays are my Totem for East and are always present as I walk my walk facing the challenges I encounter in my Spirituality.

A few weeks ago our roof was replaced. The old one was probably the original roof and had been patched in numerous places each time a shingle had blown off and it started leaking. We now have a beautiful burgundy metal roof and I gotta tell you the rain falling on the metal roof is more than soothing! It’s raining ATM, and I could probably go wrap up in my blankets and not regret leaving the “chores” for another day, LOL!! All these little things are ginormous blessings in my eyes. And I am more than grateful for the Gods Blessings on my life…


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Reason, Season, Lifetime

From time to time while searching through my archived documents, I find things that seem to fit the mood I’m in at the time. This is one of those documents. Over the last few weeks, I’ve been smacked upside the head relentlessly, driving me to find this again. It was in a file folder I had transferred to my external hard drive. I don’t know why it is important to get this out here today, but someone needs this … or maybe I do. 

Quite a few years ago I wrote the following poem about the loss of a friend. I then posted it on MySpace, MyYearbook, and Vampire Rave in 2005, with NO copyright protection. It has been changed up and redistributed by MANY people. That I do not mind. I just want to make clear the fact that this is my original work and if you choose to use it, please link back…

Reason, Season, or Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty; to provide you with guidance and support; to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like they have been sent by the Gods, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Once they have met their commission, they find the time they spend with you to be stifling and move on. There is no fault to anyone for this, it is simply part of the Turning of the Wheel.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share your wisdom. It is your time to lead or teach or share your life experience, they are the one in need at this time and have been led to you to find their answers. They may not fully understand the gift of knowledge they have been given and after a time feel there is no profit for them and they either leave of their own accord or you are the one to walk away from a stagnant situation. Or, without any wrongdoing on your part, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that the need has been met, the desire fulfilled; your work is done. The prayer that was sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. But that time was a learning period for the both of you. Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. The lifetime relationships have a lasting impact on all those involved, these relationships will always stand through the toughest storms and weather any tempest brought to you. I am blessed to have a few in my life that I consider lifetime relationships.

So, for those who have crossed into my life for whatever occasion, I thank you for coming into my life for a Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime

 


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Good Morning, Kindred!

I know I’ve been a bit quiet for the past few days and some of you have messaged to make sure I’m OK. Yes, I’m good, as matter of fact, I’m GREAT!

Jimmy had the day off on Friday to go to traffic court, on the way back we did some exploring, there were a couple of local places he wanted to show me that he had come across while driving the big ass truck.

We found an amazing side of the road carry out place for down-home southern cooking, OMG! There weren’t any tables to eat at, so we went down the road about 10 miles and stopped at Lu Mill vineyard. All I can say is that experience was wonderful… they have a large covered patio with tables and the guy in the tasting room/gift shop said we were more than welcome to picnic there.

After devouring the food … the meatloaf and mac n cheese I had was Om nom, nom, NOM!, we went inside and tasted some of the most delicious wines I’ve had in a very long time. After tasting 6 different wines and 2 “mixed drinks” made with wine, we walked away from the gift shop with 2 bottles of sweet wine, one white and one red, a bottle of peach cider and a bottle of grape cider.

Before we left, we drove around the vineyard and checked out the cabins they have for rent as well as the ponds where they permit the public to fish in… ya’ll it’s TWO DOLLARS per person PER DAY! and since it’s private property, no fishing license is required. Jimmy is in HEAVEN!!

From there we stopped to check out a place that advertises fresh seafood including shrimp, scallops, and crab. Let’s just say, I was under impressed. The shrimp was the only thing that was fresh, the scallops and crab were frozen, and the price was ridiculous. It was higher than Fresh Market!

Yesterday, Saturday, was a full day of running errands and getting things accomplished. With only one vehicle and Jimmy needing to drive it to work each day, I usually run the household errands on Saturday even if I have to take him to work that day.

Today, it’s puttering around the house kind of day, there’s at least one load of laundry to do … gotta get those work clothes washed, LOL! And I’m hoping I can get Jimmy to help me set up the “table” I’m going to be using for my crafts. Tanya found what looks to be a panel from a large desk in an empty apartment last week, and for now, I plan to use cinder blocks for the legs.

I have no complaints about my life, in fact, I’d say things are pretty great …   ❤ ❤ ❤