The Feisty FaerieWitch

Thoughts on a Thor's Day …

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 I Vow to be Myself

You know that feeling you get when there is something you *just know* you want to do or a challenge you feel should accept? Where all your waking thoughts are consumed by this topic and even your dreams can overwhelm you with every little situation that could possibly arise from this *thing*? Yeah, THOSE kinds of thoughts. I’ve been having them a LOT lately. I had even begun taking the first steps to have them manifest in my life, only to be rudely awoken by the reality of “this is NOT where your path is taking you. This is not what your higher calling is leading you to. Step off the safe road, step off the well worn lane and get back on the seemingly invisible path I have set your feet upon.

Several months ago, I did some research on a national organization I thought I wanted to part of. I contacted them, they in turn reached out to me and we began the process of checking items off the list of things I would need to do before I was officially part of the throng. And then I settled in to wait until all the information that had been exchanged could be confirmed and my references verified. And I waited … and waited … and waited. Until so much time had passed that I had actually mostly forgot about what at one time could have been considered an obsession.

And then one day the phone rings and on the other end of the line is the person who is going to give me the go ahead and I’m official. But wait, there’s a few more questions that need to be answered before the final decision can be made. OK, I’m up for that. I have nothing to hide … I answer the questions, everything is good to go, but after the call is over I feel as if I’ve been stifled, censored, once again made over into something I’m not. During the conversation I agreed to change some of the things that are the biggest part of me, and because of this, I feel confused, belittled and even a bit degraded. Once more I had gotten myself into a situation that in the end, wanted me to become and act like someone I am not. I am not all sunshine and lollypops, and there are times, no matter how hard I try, I CANNOT keep my mouth shut.

As I’m sitting here thinking about what I had just agreed to, I feel anxious, uncertain and then anger. Anger at the person on the other end of the phone that felt they had the right to expect me to be someone I am not, then even more anger at myself for agreeing to the things they asked of me.

 

And I have my answer. I know what I must do. And being part of this national organization I had been in communication with is NOT where my feet are going to be walking.

I MUST be true to myself in everything I do, with no compromise, no change and no doubts … period!

Author: Vickie

I am Vickie, but known by many names, wife, mother, friend, BITCH! And each title I more than deserve. I have been defying description for more than half my lifetime. I occasionally have my sanity, although my circle of friends might disagree with that; I’m a mix of opposites, random, different and unconventional. I’m a self taught know it all and even though I can admit I really don’t know everything, I do know enough to carry on a conversation with most anyone. Some call me mouthy, I freely speak my mind…I do NOT tolerate BS. I’m a wife, Mom, Abi, Witch, eclectic, free-thinking, Priestess in training, wanna be gardener, who loves all things Faerie, cooking and everything about my life!

2 thoughts on “Thoughts on a Thor's Day …

  1. I noticed the website that you had on the right on your blog. I was wondering what the Path of She is all about. I did some checking and was enchanted by what Karen was talking about. I’m reading little by little each day when I can. Fascinating!

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    • I’m so glad you found Karen and Path of She! When you get the chance, PLEASE get her book Tale of the Lost Daughter (it’s available on Kindle). I cannot say enough great things about this book and how it is changing so many lives. I’ve even got Jimmy reading it and he does not read books at all. Follow her on FB too! You will be amazed at the changes you begin to notice. Love you BIG! ❤

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