It has been an extremely intense few weeks, just what many of didn’t need to start our New Year off with. But, we’ve made it through the arguments, misunderstandings, moments of anger and frustrations, electronic failures and the all around chaos that can come with Mercury Retrograde. I’ve seen more than my fair share of misplaced anger between people who would normally be able to weather the small storm and move on, I’ve caught myself acting out in ways that hadn’t presented themselves in quite a long time. Yeah, it’s been tough …
But, today Mercury goes direct and while we are still in the shadow phase until February 7th, things will now begin to level out once again and we can all get back to the day to day living, with the promise of serenity to come.
Confession time. Right smack dab in the middle of this most recent retrograde, I had an epiphany. Something that I’ve been working for quite some time to release just went poof. No, seriously! Without any thought given nor any regrets and such a feeling of freedom once it was gone it is amazing! Like Elsa says, I let it go and haven’t looked back, haven’t missed it and am no longer obsessed with keeping up.
Once that last bit of trash was tossed away, it was like my heart took wing and I began to soar once again. The freedom I’m feeling is indescribable. For someone who has always been unafraid to say what is on her mind to be stifled and more than afraid to open her mouth to once again gain the freedom that has always been enjoyed is greatly appreciated. I will never take that part of my persona for granted again. Yes, I’ll be speaking my mind, yes, I’m sure I’ll even react instead of respond. That’s part of growing, changing and learning. However, now I don’t have the constant shadow hanging over me. Now I am back to being me.
Let’s face it one week from tomorrow is my birthday, I’ll be 60. In all my wildest imaginings I never thought I’d live to see 60. But here I am, living and loving the life I have. I’m finally able to embrace ME without reservation, to look at my life, the places I’ve been, the things I’ve said or done and know those things were part of my journey to here. My journey is far from over. I have so much more to learn and so much more to share. I am looking forward to my Crone years and the things they have lined up for me to experience. Want to come along? Hang on, the ride is going to be bumpy, but OH SO WORTH EVERY MINUTE OF IT!!!